I want to be skinny like these girls.
I want to finally have my thighs not touch.
i want to have visible hip bones and collar bones.
i want to be beautiful.

I feel inadequate.
I'm not good enough for you, I know I'm not.
I'm not pretty. I don't have a nice body.
And it kills me inside knowing I just can't change it.
It doesn't matter how long I don't eat for, or how many times I dye or cut my hair.
I look just as horrid as I did before.

It annoys me that you only ever answer with what needs to be said.
It annoys me that I have sport first period tomorrow and I don't know how to get out of it this time.
I'm not in the mood for this shit.

I'm sick of going to this fucking school.
The girls go on and on about shit they don't have a fucking clue about.
The teachers all pretend to give a shit about the girls but none of them do.
Everyone is just so damn pathetic.
I'm sick of wasting day after day at such a fucking hole.