If I go into The Darkness.

I long for that love,
That love you provide,
I lived in your love,
Basked in the feeling of joy,
I felt wanted and enjoyed.
I realised what you were doing to me,
Taking me over,
Making me yours,
I didn't want to be yours,
I just wanted the love you gave,
You filled my head,
Stole my thoughts I didn't want you knowing about,
You knew everything,
Every longing,
Every wanting,
Every craving,
Every temptation,
Every time I gave in,
You knew.
I escaped you,
I ran away,
I hid from you,
And all you do,
Your constant controlling,
I didn't want this,
Even now,
Now I have escaped,
You still read my thoughts,
You still know me through and through,
I never wanted you to know me like this,
I didn't want any of this,
I didn't ask for this.

Why did you do this.
Why am I controlled.
Why do you not face me about what you have done.
Why did you not face me about what happened.
Why did you not just ask me,
Instead of controlling me.
I am not a variable.
I am not an experiment.
I will not go according to your plans.
I do not have an aim, hypothesis and method.
You can not fix me with the usual instruments.

Please leave me be.
Please let me feel the true freedom I once knew.