If I go into The Darkness.

Oh darling girl,
What none of you know is that I have been through this pain.
It happened over and over so that it seemed to be normal.
I did have my friends but over the years they one by one left.
Moved to other schools, other countries.
I felt the solitude and pain every day.
It never seemed to end.
Every class, every recess, every lunchtime. I was the excluded one.
The one that never quite fitted in.
I wasn't invited to the parties or sleepovers.
Sure, I had my amazing friends out of school but that didn't fill the hole.
I would always just look on not understanding their inside jokes.
I realised what had become normal to me.
What I had put up with.
I realised I was better than that. I didn't deserve this. It wasn't fair.
Up until then I had kept up my mask. I had never taken it off.
Not even when I had gotten home from the torture.
One morning I couldn't take it anymore.
I broke down in tears. I had to get away from it.
So I have been through what you have.
I have felt how you have.
I have hidden it behind a mask.
But yet you still do not resort to such thing that I have for relief.