Oh god.
What am I meant to do about school.
My lack of friends will just be worse there.
Maybe I could go to the counsellor.
I'm not sure I can trust her.
I always think she's going to tell Ondrabitch everything.
I'm in so much pain.
Maybe I just won't go to school for a while.
Or talk to people. People can cause so much hurt.
you know..every single person i knew in year 9 hated me. even the one person i hung out with ditched me and didnt really look out for me. everyone hated me. cursing at me so loudly everywhere i went. i couldnt take it i just balled in class sometimes as theyd yell profanity at me. i had no one. no one but the razor i went to bed with every. single. night. it was all i had. i had to go to counselling, but i dont remember it doing a damn thing. i didnt go to school for the whole year. i was forgotten. then out of the blue my old youth pastor asks me to youth group one night. totally random...now. im here... things change steph. no matter how much it hurts, no matter how happy things are. life fades in and out, its what its best at...
ReplyDeletei have no clue why i just blurted that all out.
i guess i wanna make sure you know you're not alone in anything...i love you, even though we barely converse. xxx
oh hannah :( i love you :( that's possibly the most heartbreaking thing i have ever read. ever. ahh.
ReplyDeleteoh, wow.
ReplyDeletei think it was supposed to make you feel better lol i dont really know..ah, sorry!
oh and why arent you answering your phone? :s