If I go into The Darkness.

I asked my parents for nothing this Christmas.
Not a single thing.
Sure I still got stuff.
But it made me think.. What do I want?
I want to be kissed in the rain.
I want a big old vintage car.
I want to be good at something.
I want to feel like I'm not a waste of space.
I want to change the world.
I want correct grammar.
I want cigarettes.
I want someone to like me back.
I want the world to be covered in flowers and smell like perfume.
I want no more hurt.
I want fun.
I want expensive cameras and good photography.
I want the beach.
I want to be childish.
I want good friends.
I want alcohol.
I want to never let go of my immaturity. I am in some way fond of it you see.
I want to read good books.
I want to feel enriched.
I want to own an amazing collection of clothes.
I want to stop being the friend of the guys and be seen as more then a friend.
I want iced chocolates and blueberry muffins in the city with friends.
I want endless fun.
I want the thrill of it all to never stop, even when we can do this all legally.
I want parties with fancy dresses and enormously high, high heels.
I want sequins, and glitter, and velvet and bows.
I want this life to be something more then what anyone would ever expect from me.